Life is a roller-coaster you just got to ride it....
i guess my life is really like a rollercoaster
it has its ups n down
everything has gone wrong since my _______ torn apart
that was 2 years ago
that was really my down-est moment in my life
i didnt know wat to do
n now????
my heart problem
(btw it got worst)
no point seeing an overseas specialist if my sickness cant be cured
cant play soccer in whole life anymore!!!!!!!!!!
NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
imagine how my life will be?????
SOMEONE JUST SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD!!!!!!!!!!
theres just no meaning in my life anymore......
i cant do anything
its just so meaningless
soccer is my passion
i've been playing it since i was young
it was cool being in the national team
n getting called-up for young women
real great joy at that time
was looking forward to challenge cup
then wat happened????
shit things happened
all my hopes crashed
my joy overtuurned
what left is the leftovers of my heart
all broken n torn into pieces
yah i'm always cheerful n happy on the outside
but inside.......
its not the same
everytime i watch the team train
i feel like y is life so unfair to me.....
y is it me....
y now...
y, y, y, y, y???????
seeing my team win all the games so far in challenge cup is really great
but inside i just wish i was on the field
playing for young women competitively
wat the hack.....
i guess that will never happen......
my dreams are just crashed
100% wont get called-up for national duty anymore
wats the point of having me in the team when i cant play?!?!?!
its just a waste of 1 player
they can get someone out there to play so that that position is not wasted
i guess i'm just trash now......
now tennis.......
also cant play
at least i dun really miss it as compared to soccer
but still i cant represent school anymore
finally got back my medal yesterday
was looking at it n thinking
'this might be my one n only medal in secondary school...'
all my years of training n playing tennis is wasted
all the drills n hard trainings are of no use
i guess i just cant ride that roller coaster
i guess i just wanna fall off
i guess i cant take it anymore
its killing me
IF U WERE IN MY SHOES HOW WOULD U FEEL??????
LIFE IS JUST SO MEANINGLESS
WITHOUT PLAYING ANY SPORTS
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Sunday, April 19, 2009
YOUNG WOMEN 7-0 OTTAWA SERPENT FC
YOUNG WOMEN 6-0 MIDDLE RANGERS 'B' FC
YOUNG WOMEN THROUGH TO SEMI FINALS!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!
we are through to semis
confirm already
but not sure who we playing against
could be police fc or isa
both also very good
but still must try
haha
left one more match
against singapore poly
haha
hopefully can win n get another clean sheet!!
haha
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Sunday, April 5, 2009
YOUNG WOMEN 8-0 SINGAPORE POLY!!!!
yay!!!!
trashed SP 8-0
guess that win was for coach
anyways he came to the match yesterday
but he was still quite joking even after wat happened on fri
the team played well!!!!!!!!!
the wings were the best!!!!!!!!!
good job chris n erika!!!!!!
u guys were great
gosh wish i could play
aiya
13 april.....
haha
uma scored a hat-trick!!!!!!!!!
haha
oh n........
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS!!!!
DAM U'RE 15
I STILL GOT AWHILE TO GO
HAHA
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Saturday, April 4, 2009
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
something bad happened yesterday before
soccer training!!!!!!!!
the whole team was like in shock la!!!!!!!!
coach!!!!!!
get well soon!!!!!!!!
we need u for today's game!!!!!!!!!!
ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
must recover arh!!!!! :)
okok
yesterday something happened to coach hassan
dun wan talk abt it here
then today got game
hopefully the team will play well for him.....
then he still worried abt todays game
walao we more worried for him then he worry for us la!!!!
haha
kk take care coach.....
rest well then can recover faster
haha
13 APRIL!!!!!!!
the verdict day
gosh i can't wait to know my results
it decides my future!!!!!!!!
good luck marilyn!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha
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