Life is a roller-coaster you just got to ride it....
i guess my life is really like a rollercoaster
it has its ups n down
everything has gone wrong since my _______ torn apart
that was 2 years ago
that was really my down-est moment in my life
i didnt know wat to do
n now????
my heart problem
(btw it got worst)
no point seeing an overseas specialist if my sickness cant be cured
cant play soccer in whole life anymore!!!!!!!!!!
NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
imagine how my life will be?????
SOMEONE JUST SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD!!!!!!!!!!
theres just no meaning in my life anymore......
i cant do anything
its just so meaningless
soccer is my passion
i've been playing it since i was young
it was cool being in the national team
n getting called-up for young women
real great joy at that time
was looking forward to challenge cup
then wat happened????
shit things happened
all my hopes crashed
my joy overtuurned
what left is the leftovers of my heart
all broken n torn into pieces
yah i'm always cheerful n happy on the outside
but inside.......
its not the same
everytime i watch the team train
i feel like y is life so unfair to me.....
y is it me....
y now...
y, y, y, y, y???????
seeing my team win all the games so far in challenge cup is really great
but inside i just wish i was on the field
playing for young women competitively
wat the hack.....
i guess that will never happen......
my dreams are just crashed
100% wont get called-up for national duty anymore
wats the point of having me in the team when i cant play?!?!?!
its just a waste of 1 player
they can get someone out there to play so that that position is not wasted
i guess i'm just trash now......
now tennis.......
also cant play
at least i dun really miss it as compared to soccer
but still i cant represent school anymore
finally got back my medal yesterday
was looking at it n thinking
'this might be my one n only medal in secondary school...'
all my years of training n playing tennis is wasted
all the drills n hard trainings are of no use
i guess i just cant ride that roller coaster
i guess i just wanna fall off
i guess i cant take it anymore
its killing me
IF U WERE IN MY SHOES HOW WOULD U FEEL??????
LIFE IS JUST SO MEANINGLESS
WITHOUT PLAYING ANY SPORTS
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